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i think one of the hardest things for me to do is let go of a friendship.
a long time affective friendship.
im sitting here looking at my yearbook from 8th grade bawling my eyes out at the fact that i was moving all people wrote was "im going to miss you! dont forget me and dont change!"
the thing is, change is happening at all times all over the place now days. it cant be stopped.
i think some things are better changed, but others i cant help but wish it was 8th grade again. i cant help but wish i was still best friends with certain people.
i know its life and i know i know i know.
im just going under a reality check right now that my high school life is going ot be over in 4 months. 4 months.
on the cover of the yearbook it says 2003.
and its now 2007.
the year i turn 18
the year i turn independent
the year i end high school
the year i go to college.
i look through this book and see things like "we are going to college together! GO UT!"
we were such dreamers back then.
i also see "i love you so much" from boyfriends who lasted a week.
we were so unaware back then.
"never change"
we were so unaware back then.
naive.
innocent.
and happy.
well some of us.
middle school is such a freaking weird age.
i hated it honestly.
everyone copies everyone.
everything is awkward.
you date everyone in your grade.
you have first kisses and saturday night plano.
who are we all now?
the kid who chose to party his pants off into rehab?
or the kid with a 4.0 gpa who is going to harvard on a football scholarship?
are you married?
are you out of the closet now?
do you know yourself yet?
do you trust yourself yet?
the other day i told someone to live with an open heart and an open mind.
pensive.
a long time affective friendship.
im sitting here looking at my yearbook from 8th grade bawling my eyes out at the fact that i was moving all people wrote was "im going to miss you! dont forget me and dont change!"
the thing is, change is happening at all times all over the place now days. it cant be stopped.
i think some things are better changed, but others i cant help but wish it was 8th grade again. i cant help but wish i was still best friends with certain people.
i know its life and i know i know i know.
im just going under a reality check right now that my high school life is going ot be over in 4 months. 4 months.
on the cover of the yearbook it says 2003.
and its now 2007.
the year i turn 18
the year i turn independent
the year i end high school
the year i go to college.
i look through this book and see things like "we are going to college together! GO UT!"
we were such dreamers back then.
i also see "i love you so much" from boyfriends who lasted a week.
we were so unaware back then.
"never change"
we were so unaware back then.
naive.
innocent.
and happy.
well some of us.
middle school is such a freaking weird age.
i hated it honestly.
everyone copies everyone.
everything is awkward.
you date everyone in your grade.
you have first kisses and saturday night plano.
who are we all now?
the kid who chose to party his pants off into rehab?
or the kid with a 4.0 gpa who is going to harvard on a football scholarship?
are you married?
are you out of the closet now?
do you know yourself yet?
do you trust yourself yet?
the other day i told someone to live with an open heart and an open mind.
pensive.
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